Journal
“I feel nothing
or
I feel everything.
I don’t know which is worse."
She wrote this quote in her journal. That was all from day's updates. It was like a roller coaster rush of a million feelings, sadness for a million reasons and thoughts drifting away to a million "should have been". Again present wasn't satisfying and she couldn't love life.... Again...
or
I feel everything.
I don’t know which is worse."
She wrote this quote in her journal. That was all from day's updates. It was like a roller coaster rush of a million feelings, sadness for a million reasons and thoughts drifting away to a million "should have been". Again present wasn't satisfying and she couldn't love life.... Again...
I had been away for long and when I returned I was unable to visit your blog. I am so glad that I can continue reading you.
ReplyDeleteThis person seems to be so dejected from life's experiences. I hope that she hangs in there. There must be something wonderful for her out there. There just has to be.
Take care dear and keep expressing yourself. :)
I am glad to have you back again here. I hid my blog because I wasn't posting anything I was partially inclined towards deleting it. I am so glad to be back and read my wonderful fellow bloggers :)
DeleteYou guessed it right, I really hope there's something good out there for her..
Personally, I cannot relate to the concept of nothing. When I say that I feel "nothing" it's mostly because all the emotions are so intensely raging and churning inside my head that their noise cancels out everything else. It's as if you're caught up in a violent storm and you cannot see / hear / feel anything except the storm. That is how I would define my "nothing".
ReplyDeleteHowever, I do feel everything and the problem is that I feel it a bit too much and too often. So, of late, I have been trying to consciously sort out everything in my life and chucking out those emotions and people who push me towards that numbing mental storm. It's difficult but then, it works. If you feel you cannot love your life enough, then do everything in your power, every day, every moment, and redecorate and rebuild your life the way you want to. No one else will.
I'm trying to learn and live that lesson myself. I hope you feel better soon. :)
I am glad you shared a really good and motivating advice. That is what my nothing is exactly. I just cannot find anyway to get of this situation. But I have started changing things from my end. Instead of being upset about everything I just try to search activities that are distracting and productive. Perhaps that is why I restarted blogging too.
DeleteI never stopped blogging, ever. Even when my writing got sloppy and all I could talk about was how I got dumped and the resultant anger and despair. SO much cynicism. SO much frustration. It's exhausting. Nobody needs that added burden in there life.
DeleteI'm not sure if I am yet on a footing to hand out advice because my life is pretty much messed up as of now. But I can vouch for things that have worked for me, right?
Take your life and emotions into your control. You own your thoughts and not the other way round. You are strong and you are wiser than you were before. If you can envision better days, don't waste a single moment or a single breath where you are not striving for that.
Life is a struggle. We don't like it (my lazy bum certainly doesn't) But it's not that you're getting another shot at life in the next century. We have one shot, the "now". Let's make it count. :D
Sorry if I have been ranting . :P
I stopped blogging because I came to the point where I couldn't eve express myself, thats how bad I felt! So I thought of deleting my blog. Luckily I did not delete because I lovveee blog reading and writing :D
DeleteNo, I really do like to read such motivating words and honestly you inspired me :) At least made me think abbout "takig charge" of my life and yes that is exactly what I should do!
Good luck to both of us then :D And thank you for sharing honest words and advices !!!
Should-have-been's... That's all my life revolves around
ReplyDeleteSame here!
DeleteLife revolves around all the models.
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