What I know now .......

All these years I've been so unsure ... so confused ! I've always seen barriers in what so ever path I chose . Thus it has always been a dead end ! The end before the beginnings !

Then to find yourself starting over a scratch ( again ! ) , standing right where you've begun . It appears you have always been there , right on that point and never moved ! A halt marked by fate may be .....

The desires themselves start to fade , you don't even have to effort 'bury them' ! Strange that the heart dies but life continues to drag ! Every passing second holds a century in itself . To use a commonly stated sentence ' nothing make sense anymore' , may be because there are no logics present or may be because your own senses are lost !

And gradually you get familiarized with the entwining pain and you get to see the reality far better from behind the veils ! There are feelings but one gets trained to bear them , keep them hidden inside the chest and let them rip you apart !

There is a voice through out the solitary dwelling ensuring * I'm here* . There is no one around but the supreme presence is felt . That is God ! He listens !

I have not yet learnt the art of assembling the shattered fragments into one existence ( that had been once ...... ) but still I've learnt to follow the light in the blues ! That to trust life enough to lead me to a better place , far more than I've once wished !

*There is betterment in everything* . That is a recent experience !