how hard it is..

how hard it is at the end of the day when I'm all alone and I've to tell myself to forget all what had happened in the past ! telling myself to forget all my sorrows and worries and forget everything ! how hard it is to pretend to be happy ! how painful it is to know that when I'll cry I've to wipe my tears by myself ! and how hard it is to smile when I actually want to cry ! how hard it is to tell others to hold on when I myself can't !

and when others need me I'm always there but how hard it is to be left alone in my blues ! how hard it is to say IT'S OKIE when nothing is OK at all ! how hard it is to be surrounded by many people but no one to hear your thoughts , no one to read your face and feelings ! how hard it is to know you've no shoulder to cry on and no one to rely on !