Sour Notes ..
How does it feel to stumble and fall ?! To be shattered into shards when you are already broken . To be trapped in 'nothingness' and to dwell in obscurity . To color the black through veils but be amidst blues yourself ! Helpless and bounded , seeing your own fall and all you can do is ... just cry !
But I did not cried !
I wanted to but I didn't !
The outcome I expected somehow may be because I am aware of my potentials or may be that I am used to seeing my demise .....
What ever !!!!
I don't know ....
Just that I knew then that I'm not going to take a step forward in the darkness I've been trying to escape ! And that I am not to give up but to try !
To strive against storms and to seek survival is a better option than to give up and drift away with tides . And after a long time I heard my inner self !
The voice with in , to follow it . May be that I'll reach the destiny or may be not just that in the end I'll know that I tried ...
' Atleast I tried ! '
With a smile I must embrace what present holds ... And so be it the way !
P.S. I had a lot of help to think positive !
hey wat happened??? got the test results ?? dun wry, if u cudn't make it..there are lot of options nd doors waiting for u still.
ReplyDeleteP.S: do let me knw abt it, i may guide u abt it since u r frm engineering too..
hahahaha see there is always help around!
ReplyDeleteYes, let it be that way,
you keep trying come whatever may,
this is what will set you apart.
Don't stop trying.
Cheers
Blasphemous Aesthete
Kiaa hua? *hugs* =) And it is okay to cry.
ReplyDeleteListen to Collide by Howie day - Even the best fall down sometimes, even the stars refuse to shine..
@ majworld : hmm .. N.E.D has their first merit list out and my name is in *to be considered if seats are available* list =/ Like wait for them ?? It is going to be in the mid November that they will give the second merit list ....
ReplyDelete*sighs*
@ Blasphemous : Agreed and yes help is always by the side , I am blessed :) yup , I will not stop trying :D
Thank you very much :)
@ Sana : those were the beautiful lines :) *hugs you too* :)
Nothing just my name was not in the merit list of N.E.D :(
P.S. how are you ? how are studies going on ?
I realize u must be feeling sad..but NED is not the only uni there. There are many others, some gud 1's too. You can wait for NED..may be u cud ve sum idea with ur merit number that u hve a chance of not..in the meanwhile u can apply for others too, u must hve done that..see others too. At the end of the day, there are many factors that count. Its not just the uni believe me...a full fledge electrical eng is telling u that :p..look for other uni's too.. Also, u can look for other depts if u want..like if u going for electrical..u can try computers too..its similar almost..I guess one issue wud be fees submission date of other uni's wud be before 2nd merit list may be..So, look in to many things, other gud ranked uni's, may be depts etc...dun wry abt ur this decision. Just wait for the best thing to happen. While taking any final decision, do read 2 nafal istikhara namaz and just ask him for help nd then just leave all to allah..sb behtar ho ga..
ReplyDelete@ majworld : yup , I have applied in other uni's too and not for engineering (once bruised is enough to teach a lesson I guess =/ :p ) . That was a very helpful piece of advice is k liye huge wala Thank you :) :D
ReplyDeleteAnd prayers are constantly increasing you know at times I feel such a loser =/ Well , wait is all I've got to do =( N.E.D ka wait , or dosri unis k result ka wait ...
Gosh this is boring !
Well I thank you again , I am working on the advice you gave :)
P.S. Sorry for late comment reply .
Awwwwwwwwwww :-) See, I think it's natural for any princess to get like this sometimes ;-) Lost N confused, Bitter N Calm, Hurt N Healed, all this makes them only look a little more . . like a princess ;-) But still, always be positive and never forget there is Always always N always something to be grateful for, always. No matter how dark it gets, no matter how bad it looks, there is always something to bethankful for. One look around and all the pain, the cry, the hurt vanish like it never existed :-) Allah bless.
ReplyDeleteDun lose hope, i again emphasize..apply for engineering if u want to..u ll get in sum gud 1 inshallah. At the end, its ur hard work that matters..gudluck..
ReplyDeleteHeyyy!! No no no don't be this sad and hopeless, not good for the skin -__- =p
ReplyDeletestuff happens =/ we feel terrible, and the time stops, but it does pass and it gets ok (even wonderful) =)
Do cry if you want to, crying is good for health, it eliminates the harmful chamicals produced by stree =o I guess that's why we always feel lighter after crying!
*hug*
Don't give up, have faith <3 Insha'Allah it will be better ^^
@ Dua : Awe ! thank you :D *hugs*
ReplyDeleteLike always your words are a real help for me :) Indeed ! there is a lot to be thankful for and yes I should be grateful to m'lord for the infinite blessings :) I will be positive more now ( at least will try ! )
Thank you :)
@ majworld : chemical engineering , applied chemistry etc :D going for them :D (inshallah kahen na kahen mil he je ga ! ) .
Agreed to that !
Thank you very much ! :)
@ Sidrah : lol *not good for skin* :D True that ! Indeed time sops but it passes some how !
Me all happy happy :D
Naah ! I do not want to cry :0
*hugs you back*
Thank you soooooooo much :)
hey girl dn b sad... hv some hope in God
ReplyDeleteMay b He had planned smethng better for u.
so b happy n enjoy life :)
ya, dun be sad..watever u ll get it wud be best for u..engineering mein waisay hi itni saturation ho gayi hai..esp electrical, computers..may be chemical thing go in ur favour..u may reach greater heights..may get better opportunities in future in that field..
ReplyDeletewhen u get in to any course, it would be a new start for u..whether its electrical, chemical or watever..u can always make success in it..so dun lose hope nd get ready for the new challenge wherever u get admission in..think its best for u nd give ur best to attain honors in it..
@ Nisha : thank you :) I will try to do that !
ReplyDelete@ majworld : that is why I opted for chemical side ... true that !
Seized time it s !
Ah well ! me still hopeful :D Kahen ache jaga hojae ga ! :D *Ameen*
Yeah ! that is in my mind whatever field it may be I will study with full zeal inshallah .
Thank you :)
ya, dats the spirit :)..dun wry, jahan ho ga acha ho ga inshallah..
ReplyDelete@ majworld : Inshallah :)
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