A Bad Day It Was ...

{ A page out of my journal which I am sharing here . Sometimes a person makes silliest mistakes ever ! Usually I am not that irresponsible especially regarding my studies but I am actually still surprised I acted this way . Well , we all make mistakes don't we =p Check out what went wrong with my day ... Some September morning it was .... }

I thought today was going to be fine . Not like every other day , boring and dull . After a long time I was having a good feeling . To be honest I was BEING POSITIVE for no reason ! It was just a self analysis test ... I can do it ! I was sure ...
I had packed my bag last night . I did my revision , I ironed my outfit . Everything was ready . I just had to go there and give my best shot ( I thought ! ) .

All dressed and ready , took my registration slip and set off . Half way there I started having this *something* in my head and a certain BAD feeling . I was sure of *all is well* before but suddenly I was not . Something was missing ! And I finally figured out what was wrong . I FORGOT MY CALCULATOR AT HOME :( Gosh ! I thought it was there in my bag like always but no it was not !

Maths , physics , chemistry all based on word problems and numericals ...
A voice in my head declared : "YOU ARE DOOMED !"


the mistake I have never done in my life ! This was why I was being positive since a bad happening was waiting to laugh at my freaked out face !

I rushed back home , took the calculator and back to the institute . It is what I know how I did it ~(

My eyes were filled with tears , my face was all red ( in anger or in embarrassment , I don't know =/ ) , my mind was in panic and I was badly freaking out ! Although I made it in time but my mind was back 'numbed' . All blank !!!!!!!

There were above thousand candidates all chattering , some busy with revision , some texting and rest moving here and there . Although it was too loud in the hall , I hardly knew what was going on ! I didn't get what announcements were made time by time , what did the head of petroleum department said .. I knew nothing ! All I knew then was I wanted to cry , I wanted to leave the hall and hide my face in my pillow ! I hated today like any other day !

And when the test started , the formulas I have knowned since 10th grade I even forgot them ! The problems I'd been through so many times while revision , I forgot their solution !

I don't know what I did and how I completed the test . I sort of winged it !
As soon as the timings were over , I hardly waited for the answer key ! I was out and back home in no time .

I went straight to my room , draw down the curtains and hid myself in my light and soft blanket . I cried then .........

I am back to down me , I am back to being sure nothing is ever well cause as it turned out ;

"All was hell rather than well ."