Speaking to you....

{ umm when I did not have words to give to my thoughts , I wrote , I crossed ... Out of those scribblings this is the one ... I am so going to regret posting this ! As promised , here goes .....}

The pain is not gone . The despondency is not over , the agony is deep as ever yet I write . I have urge to do so and here I am , with this piece of paper and pen , my solitude , my thoughts and me ....

Whenever I get to pen words , I write your name or something for you , something about you or something out of your memory . You see the impact you've laid on me that now my every word is yours , my thoughts are yours .. I am yours ...

Ah ! the ache .. lost love , seclusion , blues ... The twinge of regret I feel in LETTING YOU GO . May be I shouldn't have accepted my defeat that easily . May be I should have efforted more to make you stay ... stay with me for ever and always . But was it of any use if I'd tried ? My efforts would have gone in vain , for you were never MINE ... How much it hurts to admit and accept this ! My pen bleeds as it writes you were never mine .. and I thought you were !

The mirage I fell for and may be deep inside me the illusion I still follow ! And tonight as the rain pours it fills my heart with more grief and I sink in the drip drop sound of rain seclusion . I wish you've felt the depth of my words ....

Ah ! See again my thoughts are addressing you .From behind the veils of distances our hearts have , I spoke of solitude but to you ....

P.S. ( OMG ! I am publishing it )
P.P.S. happens sometimes isn't it ?
P.P.P.S ya what ever !