I want to be free !
As I grow old , as I move ahead in life , I get more stressed , I do not wish to survive ! Every new morning and every rising sun just brings more burn to my wounded broken self !! The scars are as fresh as newly carved on my heart . The marks not faded yet more prominent and more hurtful !!!!!
I'm tired ! Tired of collecting my shattered pieces , tired of pretending to LIVE ! Every other day I just wish to meet the end ! End of my life , end of me thus end of my griefs ! I hate living more and more with every second that adds despair and malady in my life . I'm done roaming in this fog of misery and affliction . I can't bear it always raining my tears ! I'm too weak for this world and I'm too weak to live !
I want escape ! Ultimate escape ! No sympathy , no cure , no love and no light , just the finish of my existence !
EXCUSE ME?
ReplyDelete@ Existing somehow : yes ?
ReplyDeleteoh my comment didn't publish here..twice did :(
ReplyDeleteYou cannot finish EXISTENCE, she is such a good writer, and that is why she is asking you to excuse her....
ReplyDeleteYOU ARE ADORABLE, you know that?
Never give up, ADVICE
@ Existing somehow : I'm waiting girl you asked " excuse me " is there something wrong ?
ReplyDelete@ majworld : Oho I am so sorry :S I don't know what is wrong can you plz try again ?
@ Salman : thank you very much for compliment and advice :)
I can't end my existence true although I wish to ! Any ways thanks again :)
as u grew up, u didn't take NIDO..hence all the problems :p
ReplyDeletewell, escapism is one of the easiest things. The challenge is to Live the life as it should be..that demands courage..so have faith and u will get what ever u want inshallah :)
suggest watching 4 parts of this program
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N1JYB4V1cIg
i had posted this in blog too sometime back..
you wish to vanish huh? will it help?
ReplyDelete@ majworld : thanks maj and yeah I'll surely check that link !
ReplyDelete@ Salman : yeah ... I think so..
What if i say, it WONT?
ReplyDelete(you don't know me, or about me, so trust me, i am serious, it doesn't help. i have vanished, my people knows)
@ Salman : hmm ....... I'm talking death here actually , completely leave this menacing world for ever ! sadly it is not in my control :)
ReplyDeleteare you a kind of a person, who if not like getting hurt, so ofcourse can't hurt someone either. So if you die, don't you think you will HURT someone? Parents? very TRUE friends?
ReplyDelete@ Salman : I am being selfish thinking of no :P LOL
ReplyDeleteno one *
ReplyDeleteLol, Live your life thinking about the Reality only, and you won't ever get hurt :)
ReplyDeleteTsk tsk. . depression is in the air apparently! :-s Heyyyyy. . are not you too young to plunge urself in such thoughts? you have a cute blog, must be having an equally cute life.nai?
ReplyDelete@ Salman : thanks !
ReplyDelete@ xehra : thoughts and reality they both differ girl that's what has lead me to like death more than life ! life is cute MA but sometimes I suffer cold but we all do haina ? sometimes spring sometime autumn !
Whoaa!!! Miles to go, but you feel like sleeping?! eh? You will come out of it. InshaAllah. Stay happy. :)
ReplyDeleteHey why this dark kind of mood, cheer up...
ReplyDeletethe only way to get out is to get through, with a smile and without care.
Cheers
Blasphemous Aesthete
no no no!! *hug* Come on! it cannot be That bad =) Don't you give up, have Failth in Allah. It will be all right! You have written it beautifully but it is just so sad =o we want happy You! =)
ReplyDeleteComplete escape aint possible now is it! :)
ReplyDeleteJust hang in there, it WILL get better. :)
@ Sarang : yeah Miles ! Uneven paths I can't stand ! Anyways Thanks :)
ReplyDelete@ Blasphemous : Trying to cheer up :) Thanks !
@ Sidrah : I trust Him I know He will help :) Thanks for liking the post and hey girl *hug you back* :) Thanks
@ Siras : I hope so :) thanks !
lovee the pic that goes aptly wid the depressing mood... here chk out some crackers on my blog to set u free :-))
ReplyDeleteThe Emotional Lava
@ CATGIRL : welcome to my site :) thanks a lot for dropping by and liking the picture ! Whoa ! crackers ! lets see what you got then :) will surely visit :)
ReplyDeleteHmmmmm I'm sure you can't mean all this, or I wish you don't. Re-think about it all, Princess N look at the world, there are so many so less fortunate people all over but still they are fighting for life, why? because life is a gift from Allah N we have no right to throw it away, or to wish to end it. I'll pray for your heart to get peace N Allah give you strength to look at the bright side. We should not be that unthankful, because we never know what we wish gets granted N leaves us with regrests for infinity hmm. Allah bless.
ReplyDelete@ Dua : that was seriously very supportive of you thank you very much Dua !
ReplyDeletewhy grow old before aging?
ReplyDeletewhy do you want to take that route?
girlie - be free for freedom is from within you!
@ Americanising Desi : thanks dear :)
ReplyDeleteLove,
ReplyDeleteYour are yet to see more colors in the world, beautiful ones ofcourse, don't lose like this.
Hug.
@ Purple : thank you so much purple for visiting and for your sweet words :) *hug* you back dear !
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